On Grief & Grieving

On Grief & Grieving

Published on Still Standing: How Active Grieving Saved Me from More Pain

There’s no question that grief is hard. It takes everything you have just to be a human when you’re deep in grief. It’s physical, it’s mental, and it’s tough. The day that I was lying in my hospital bed waiting for my induction to help me push out my stillborn baby boy, Jonah, I made a decision. We had been…

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On Grief & Grieving

Published on Still Standing Magazine: How One Facebook Comment from a Stranger Shaped My Grief

In the very early days of my grief in January 2017, I started my blog, Letters to Jonah. At first, I used it only for writing letters to my stillborn son. It was my space for pouring my grief into, and everything I wrote was very personal, yet I felt the need for it to be public. I put my own…

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Life After Loss, On Grief & Grieving

The Unreliable Griever

Grief changes you in a lot of ways. It can change your entire personality – not necessarily for the worse, but definitely different. You might become more cynical, more snarky, quieter, more introspective, more or less forgiving, more empathetic…there are so many ways you can be different. You struggle to know yourself after such a monumental loss, and it really takes…

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On Grief & Grieving

When Grief Meets Physical Pain, Meets PMS: The Perfect Storm Week

After writing prolifically here on my blog several times a week since just a couple weeks after losing my son, it has been quiet (too quiet) for an entire week. Did anyone notice the tumbleweeds roll by? I posted a couple of things on Instagram, but have been otherwise MIA. The reason: this was one of the hardest weeks I’ve…

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