Everything Will Be Alright if You Let it Go

Everything Will Be Alright if You Let it Go

 

Dear Jonah,

When I was driving home the other day, I heard this song play on the radio and it really spoke to me and made me think. Well…besides the getting high and stoned part 😉 Here’s the song:

First of all, let me say that I am mildly religious, but have had a hard time finding a connection to my religion since losing you.

The lyrics all meant something to me – they could all be interpreted to fit my life right now, as I’m missing you. Let me elaborate – here are the verses:

Stick with me Jesus through the comin’ storm
I’ve come to you in search of something I have lost
Shine down a light on me and show a path
I promise you I will return if you take me back

The coming storm is, for me, the current raging storm of losing you. I’ve lost you, and I need Jesus to shine down a light on me and show me a path to get through this. It’s been hard to find Him in this situation, so “I promise you I will return if you take me back” is me wanting Him to love me and for me to love Him, despite not understanding or feeling close to Him right now in this time of immense sorrow and not being able to understand why this happened to me. (Isn’t this song crazy? He has this beautiful lyric about Jesus shining a light, then goes on to being high and stoned!)

My friends are so alone and it breaks my heart
My friends don’t understand we all are lost
Shine down a light on them and show a path
I promise you they will return if you take ’em back

My friends are my fellow loss moms that I’ve connected with via Facebook and otherwise in the community. We are all lost…we need to be shown a path through this loss that we’re all experiencing together.

Come with me Mary through these modern lines
Stick with me Jesus til’ the end of time
Shine down a light on me and let me know
And take me in your arms and never let me go

This verse is really interesting – I think by modern lines, the artist is referring to the chorus about getting high and stoned. That last line, though, “take me in your arms and never let me go” – save me Jesus, show me the way through this!

And finally, the chorus:

Let ’em get high
Let ’em get stoned
Everything will be alright if you let it go
Let ’em get high
Let ’em get stoned
Everything will be alright if you let it go

For me, since I’m not a smoker, getting high and stoned right now is just finding comfort. The artist feels comforted and can let things go when he’s high…whereas for me, I can do that more when I’m comforted. Of course, by “let it go”, I’m not saying that I can just “let go” the fact that you, my precious Jonah, have left this world before taking a breath. However, I do think that I can let go of some of my pain. I can let go of some of my stress and of some of my pain by finding comfort wherever I can. For me, that doesn’t mean getting high, but it does mean finding comfort in the arms of Jesus and good friends, in bubble baths with a glass of cabernet, in grief counseling, in the loving embrace of your daddy, sitting with precious family members and smiling…all of these things help me “let it go” just a little. I let go just a little bit of that pain every time I find a smile – every time my heart makes another crack in the hard, dark shell surrounding it over these past couple months.

This song is going to be on repeat for me, because it gives me hope. It gives me hope that, some day, I’ll be able to let go of a large part of the pain that I feel over your leaving me in this hard world, and everything will be alright. It will…I know it will. It just takes time, my sweet Jonah. I miss you so, so much.

grief-companion

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