Sometimes, I wonder why I’m writing on this blog about Jonah and life after loss. Wouldn’t it be so much easier to just keep all of my deepest, most private of thoughts and feelings to myself, my husband and my therapist? The answer, of course, is yes. It would be much easier. I would still write, but it would be…
You’ve probably played Chutes and Ladders at some point in your life, but if you’ve been through tough grief, you’ve lived it. I remember playing it when I was a kid. You’d be bopping along hitting ladders, but...
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Grief is a life-changing, powerful state of being. I call it a “state of being” because it’s much, much more than an emotion, or even a set of emotions. It’s a state of being – actually, I’d go so far...
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I haven’t written here on Letters to Jonah in more than a week – 11 days, to be exact. I guess you could say I’m busy, as Courageous Mothers is turning into a wonderful place on the web for mamas to go to find comfort...
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I am a lighthouse. Or at least, I’m trying to be one. For you, mama. I’ve always held a romantic view of lighthouses. They stand on rough shorelines, emitting a a bright light that slices through darkness and fog, to keep...
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Dear Jonah, How are you doing up there, my little guy? I bet you and Grandma Kelly are bringing so much joy to each other in Heaven. The other night, I had a dream with you in it! I hadn’t had any dreams about you just yet, and I...
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Grief changes you in a lot of ways. It can change your entire personality – not necessarily for the worse, but definitely different. You might become more cynical, more snarky, quieter, more introspective, more or less forgiving...
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My husband and I both went to college at UMD in Duluth, MN. It’s where we met, fell in love by Lake Superior, and hated to leave when we left for jobs in Minneapolis. In fact, my anxiety symptoms started after we moved. Somehow, I...
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In one of my sessions with my therapist, she mentioned that some people in the loss mom/grief community don’t like the term “healing”. Since that day, I’ve thought about that a lot. Every time I post something...
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I’ve been a book nerd for my entire life. I was the kind of kid who won class contests in middle school for reading the most pages, and I tried to be a Meteorologist in college, but couldn’t resist the pull of being an...
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