This post was originally published on Medium on April 3rd – it was written 2.5 months after having Jonah. I decided it should live here on Letters to Jonah, too. So here it is <3 I’ve noticed some things since losing my first baby, Jonah, about grieving in our culture. I’m sure it varies across families, religions and ideologies, but…
I’ve been published on Still Standing Magazine for the first time! I’m so excited and humbled to be among such great writers, telling their stories of grief, loss, love, hope, and life. My first post is about our future...
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Last month, I misplaced my dinghy. There I was, sailing along atop the turbulent waves of my grief, when I tumbled out of my little boat and it floated out of my reach. The waves of depression and grief pulled me under, and I struggled...
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Sometimes, I wonder why I’m writing on this blog about Jonah and life after loss. Wouldn’t it be so much easier to just keep all of my deepest, most private of thoughts and feelings to myself, my husband and my therapist?...
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You’ve probably played Chutes and Ladders at some point in your life, but if you’ve been through tough grief, you’ve lived it. I remember playing it when I was a kid. You’d be bopping along hitting ladders, but...
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Grief is a life-changing, powerful state of being. I call it a “state of being” because it’s much, much more than an emotion, or even a set of emotions. It’s a state of being – actually, I’d go so far...
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I haven’t written here on Letters to Jonah in more than a week – 11 days, to be exact. I guess you could say I’m busy, as Courageous Mothers is turning into a wonderful place on the web for mamas to go to find comfort...
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I am a lighthouse. Or at least, I’m trying to be one. For you, mama. I’ve always held a romantic view of lighthouses. They stand on rough shorelines, emitting a a bright light that slices through darkness and fog, to keep...
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Dear Jonah, How are you doing up there, my little guy? I bet you and Grandma Kelly are bringing so much joy to each other in Heaven. The other night, I had a dream with you in it! I hadn’t had any dreams about you just yet, and I...
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Grief changes you in a lot of ways. It can change your entire personality – not necessarily for the worse, but definitely different. You might become more cynical, more snarky, quieter, more introspective, more or less forgiving...
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